Dicembre Sei, 10:15 AM

You know what I wanted in my life? To be invisble. That’s one of the many things I wanted in my life.
In my previous school, I wasn’t complaining about being the “out-of-place” person. In fact, I like it. It’s not that I’m an anti-social or something, but I realized, it’s the thing I wanted. It’s not also that I don’t have friends. In fact, I have a lot of friends. I just wanted to be alone, you know.

That’s all I wanted. I don’t want people to notice me, or worse, take pity on me, like what one uninvited reader of this blog had said. Someone also said that she pities me because I felt like so left out. No, I don’t feel like so left out. It’s what I wanted, you know.

I just learned from someone that my disappearance issue hadn’t died down yet. Some people still feel guilty about, but the truth is, it’s not them. It’s me. What I wanted is to be invisble, but I don’t want people to talk behind my back. I mean, when I go somewhere, I will arrive discreetly and nobody will take notice or talk about me when I left, period.

And that’s what’s happening right now, and I’m pretty happy about it. I go to school, everyone smiles at me, I smile back at them, nobody knew my name (except for my team mates) and they talk to me, and I talk back to them, then I’ll go home after training and classes, period. That’s what I wanted.

Last night, I watched Kyle XY. Geez, I’ve lost track of the story. They never showed who attacked Lori, but he or she surely left out an ugly mark on Lori’s left eye.

The episode was about Steven’s comatose dad. Mom’s right, Kyle’s now getting psychic. I mean, e supposed to be a superhuman, but not a mutant with superpowers that can read mind. The thing is, he was getting ala Jean Grey or Professor Charles Xavier already.

Kyle started drawing (not exactly, dotting is the right term) some scenes that he never seen. Do you get it? For example, he had drawn the Saint Agustine Church, but according to Steven, it was torn down before Lori was born. It means Kyle never saw the church. Then he draw this big picture of inside a house in the wall of his own room. When he showed it to Steven, he (Steven) recognized it as his comatose dad’s house.

The next day, Kyle visited Steven’s dad in the hospital. He’s very convinced that he was sort of communicating with the comatose person’s mind. I never get to understand the other parts of the episode because I was so absorbed with the huge pomelo fruit that I was eating. You know, I eat pomelo fruit, everyday but I’ve never seen bigger than this. When I finished my huge pomelo fruit, I was able to concentrate on watching. As far as I could remember, Amanda and Kyle kissed in the beautiful garden (somewhere in the suburbia).

The scene shifted in high school, Wherein Lori was in her locker, locking up some of her things. Josh passed and she followed him and asked him what’s his problem. Boy, Josh was getting taller everyday. Lori asked him what was his problem. Josh said nothing and asked Lori what makes her think that he has a problem. Lori said that it felt very weird because Josh never made a nasty remark about Lori for the whole week, since the night someone attacked her. And avoiding her at their home and school, for that matter too.

Josh assured Lori that he wasn’t being very emotional or something, before telling her the real problem. According to Josh, he was avoiding Lori for the whole week because every time he sees the scar on her face, it makes him mad and wanted to hunt down who did that to his sister.

Lori was touched and it made her to jump and hug her brother, Josh was too quick for that. He just said, “Duh, Lori, look where are we. We’re in school!”

I went to bed right after, but this time, instead of reading, I continued writing the novel I was trying to finish this year. If ever I finished that novel, I’ll send some people copies of it for evaluation. As usual, Aubrey will be my editor, or Karmina. But I think, I’ll send Lizzie a copy of it. You know, she said she appreciates the way I write. She said it during the last time we talked through the phone.

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