Love or Lust

The first time I was inlove was when I was in gradeschool...I was grade4 when I notice a girl not as beautyful as you thought...We love to look at each other and hold our hands..
When we were in grade5 we never talk at all because we are so shy to each other then I knew it was just a puppy love..So when I graduated to gradeschool and I started to study as Highschool student I meet lot of girlfriends and bestfriends....
Then when the time I love a one cute girl who was my seatmate...we talk a lot we minggle and tease each other everytime we went home..One day she want me to come to her place to meet her parents and so that they will know me also as a boyfriend of their daughter...
So time pass as by we are going to graduate then we realize to made ourselves romantic and then it went to something that we both like...After that I couldn't feel any love on her anymore because we did it more than we expected untill we graduated...
Now my problem is how can I restore my heart when everytime I try to Love someone is turn into Lust..(-_-)
My life now is like that I'm not going anywhere because I don't have any place to go because of my insecurities in my past, everytime I met a girl to love it always turn to lust...

I felt sorry for myself that I didn't become a matured person because of my feelings that made it into lust...I'm sorry to all my friends, my family, relatives and most of all the girl that I should love but turn to lust...I'm sorry that I am so coward to myself that I didn't wait for the right time that all the those things happened to me was my fault....

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