Is it my fault?

My phone rings. I answer it. " What the hell did you say to her?!", says the man on the other line. Yes, i knew this "man". A week ago, he started texting me. He was the boyfriend of my friend's sister. He wanted to know if my number was still working. That started it all. I never knew at that time that it was going to turn out as a big dilemma for me. He was being friendly. He was currently working at a big hospital in an island across from mine. Like me, he was a nurse. He was quite accommodating. He offered to help me find a job there. He was asking me when i was going, because if i was he was going to help me find a place to stay and show me around. That was a bit ironic knowing that we weren't really that much acquainted. I was thankful though that he made me that offer although i wasn't really counting on it. and so it went, for a few days we continued texting on and off. and then last wednesday, i met my friend. The sister of the man's girlfriend. Of course, girls do chat and so i asked her if the "man" and her sister were still together. she said no and added that somebody told her the man was seen with some other girl on a public restaurant from the city where he was working. obviously, it reached the ears of her "ate" (a local term we call our older sisters).and so i too shared with her that we did text with the man a week ago. I told her that he offered to help me find a job in the island and some place to stay in as well. at first she was shocked knowing that me and the man were never really friends friends. maybe i hinted to her too that i felt the man was kinda flirting a little bit. She asked me if she could tell her sister about this and i said well, yes of course. That was the biggest mistake that i ever did without even knowing how it would affect the people involved and what effect it would bring. I guess they were still both hoping to get back together, but now because of what i did, i might have ruined what little hope they had of getting back. and so that lead us back to the phone call. " She's furious with me because of something that you said to her! what did you say to her?!" the man said. " I never talked with her. Do you mean chanze (my friend's name)?", i replied. " I only told her in passing that we texted for a while and that you offered to help me.. Why is there something wrong with the two of you?" i asked. "Well obviously there is! I was just trying to be nice to you nothing more! why has this become an issue?!", he roared. "Why are you taking this negatively man? Why would i say something to add up and cause an issue with the two of you.", i explained. "Can you call her? Here is her number. Talk to her please?", he pleaded. "Ok i will.", i said. Instead, i texted my friend about what he said and so she called me up. " Hello ma? What the hell's wrong with that man?! He is such a jerk! Don't worry about it ma. I'll talk to my sister instead. I never added anything to what you said to me. I only relayed everything that you said.", chanze on the other line said. And so now, i'm caught up in this maze of emotions...feeling guilty, not feeling guilty, feeling sad, depressed and a lot of unwanted emotions. I apologized for it of course, i shouldn't have said anything about it, or i could have just talked about it lightly. One way or another, the harm has been done and obviously, i started it all. But was it really my fault? should i be feeling guilty about it? I'm worried, that i am. One thing keeps on bugging me, i shouldn't have..really shouldn't have.. today i got a forwarded message from chanze's sister. Forwarded if you could call it one, it was more like making me realize and intended ONLY for me. Like, there was a coded message in it that only I could only decode or something. It says: " There are three ways of apologizing. SAying 1. I'm sorry, 2. It was my fault, 3. How can I make it right? Sometimes people only stop at number one and two. sometimes, only number one. but the most important point that most people forget is number 3. Good morning :=)" *end of message* what was that supposed to mean? should i be doing more about it? Should i be trying to make things right? Should i?

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